…By Wambui

I like to lie on the grass and watch the clouds floating lazily in the sky.  Big, small, light, thick – all shapes and sizes.  In these moments, the matrix of random thoughts that make up my thought process comes alive.  The matrix stretches, bounces up and down, and the countless compartments somehow fuse together to produce that occasional “Aha!” moment.  This is the moment when I understand something I have never before understood, or I understand it in a completely new way.

I had been hearing the term “gentle warrior” used to describe a man who is a leader, protector, defender, and yet a lover, comforter and friend.  I understood that the term was coined to bring out the soft side of a man.  I had never really thought about how the term could apply to a woman.

My “Aha!” moment came when a particular cloud that was floating right above me seemed to stay in place for unusually long, yet the others floated by quite fast.  It reminded me of a friend who has completely refused to let me apply anything less than a Godly standard to my life.

When I was whining about my frustrations at work, she gently reminded me that God had put me there for a reason, and that those frustrations had a lesson attached to them.  She gently bullied me into changing my whining from, “What am I still doing here?” to “God, I’m lost; show me the way.”

When two of our mutual friends fell out, she completely refused to let me take sides. She adamantly rubbished my opinion on who was the cause of the disagreement.  I had no choice but to remain neutral and encourage them both to make up.

There is a time I wanted to give up praying for something I really wanted, but which eluded me for years on end.  She jokingly told me that God is not an ATM that I should go to only when I need money, and that prayer is not an ATM card that allows me to have instant access to cash when I’m broke.

Now, if that is not a gentle warrior, then I guess I have many more hours of cloud watching to do before I understand the term.

Yet again, God spoke to me in a way my simple mind could understand.

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